and words were never so useful

• Civics Field Trip
• Not going back to school with the class
• Hanging out at the Eaton Centre w/ Keyan
• Heading to volunteer training
• Taking the subway (I actually really love it, because I barely ever use it)
• Volunteer training for 1-2 hours
• Hoping I’m not as awkward as I usually am

I want to go to Colorado this summer so bad. I want to go see my grandparents, and live in a beautiful town for a bit. It’s so nice there, it’s like my own little utopia. Plus, I haven’t seen them in so long, and I really want to be able to spend some time with them. I just really miss my grandparents, and Fort Collins, and the pretty libraries, and the public transit, and going swimming everyday, and the mall (IT’S SO CUTE), and Dairy Queen, and walks in the night time, and my grandma’s cooking, and my grandpa’s jokes, and their dynamic, and them, and their couch, and COLORADO IS SO BEAUTIFUL I WANT TO BE THERE RIGHT NOW AHHH.

Recent events are actually leading me to believe in some kind of a zombie apocalypse or robot takeover to be the end of the world. Robots are learning and people are going craycray,and I can’t believe I actually believe in this.

As much of a pain in the ass school can be sometimes, I can never take it for granted anymore. Ever. Ever, ever, ever. It actually bothers me so much how lightly people take everything they have. People who don’t do any work in school, and just complain about how much they hate it. People who depend on others to do all their work for them, or to be responsible for their own learning. People who KNOW they’re not going to have enough money when (or should I say, if) they go on to higher education, but waste money on stupid things. AAAAAH, it bothers me so much. Or if you don’t even show up to class or do any work and actually continue to believe you’re going to get somewhere… NO. STOP BEING AN ASSHOLE. And that’s all I can even think when people waste what they have; you’re an asshole. Someone worked hard to get where you are, and everything you have could have easily gone to someone who would have used it to its full potential. DON’T BE STUPID AND WASTE IT, UGGGGGH.

That is all.

I don’t understand how people can waste all their time wallowing in self-pity. “I hate this, why do I have to do that, life would be better if I had this,” etc, etc, etc. People find the smallest excuses to hate everything. I see people with a negative outlook on everything, and they blame the world for it. They go out into the world, not even looking for something better, but just to express their discontent with life. Honestly, I don’t get it.

“If you don’t like something, change it. If you can’t change it,  change your attitude.”

If only everyone could follow this one little quote. If you weren’t so terribly bitter towards everything, life would be a lot more enjoyable. If you looked at everyday as an opportunity, rather than a tragedy, you’d have a lot more fun. If you could only understand how fortunate you are to just be where you are, not to mention alive, you would realize how much you’re wasting feeling bad for yourself all the time. I mean, I know things can get bad sometimes, and I know it can bring you down. It’s not a bad thing to be sad, it happens. What’s bad is sulking in it, and letting yourself drown in despair. What’s the point of that? What’s the point of being sad when you can be happy? It may be tough, but there’s always a way. I don’t really know how to end this, so I’ll end it with another quote. 

The fact that you are even here, alive on this planet, is a mathematical miracle, and you should not spend the time you have being busy being miserable.

idontknowwheretostart:

When that crippling fear that you aren’t going anywhere with your life takes over you. You are just a talent-less mediocre nobody. 

Well, the volunteer position. I’ll be volunteering at one of the coolest places in my city, and I’ll also get a killer reference letter from it too. It’s going to be so fun, and I’m so excited! I honestly thought I bombed that interview, because they were judging you on your effort put forth while working in a team, but whenever I tried to talk, the others wouldn’t listen. I’m so glad I got in though, this summer’s going to be great! My other friends got in too, so that’s going to make our training session on Thursday a lot less awkward. (Well, kind of. One of them I talk to a lot,  and the other one I barely talk to. He was the one guy in my class in grade 8 that I didn’t talk to. Meh.) But oh well, I’m just excited that I got in! I can’t wait for the summer now, it’s going to be awesome.